Simply Put...

I just want to be loved...relentlessly.

But Seriously...

My recent relationshit taught me a lot about myself and what I want. I no longer have the need to just feel anything. I used to want to feel something so badly that, it didn't matter whether it was positive or negative it just had to be SOMETHING. Now, I just want to feel something real. Something that feels so good and so right, that I want it to stick around. I want a guy who wants all of me, and who is intelligent enough to see my worth. This last guy had no idea what he was dealing with, so there was no way he could treat me as well as I deserved to be treated. That guy treated silk like it was burlap. I was too much for him to handle. As lost as I felt dealing with that situation, I think it actually help me find myself and now I'll recognize the love I need when I find it. Let's all raise a glass to that short bastard! Cheers!!

(Okay maybe I'm still a little bitter, but baby steps...baby steps)

Gotta Focus

Now that I'm done wasting time with idiots and lesser men, I have moved my attention back to the search of something closer to God. He doesn't even KNOW...but he will soon. Just wait and see!