Epiphany

After a couple of strangely emotional days, it hit me earlier. Why am I waiting around to see what this guy will do next? I'm 25, live in L.A., and I'm fucking stunning. What the hell am I doing wasting time on a guy who can't tell water's wet? Maybe he'll come around, and maybe he won't. Meanwhile I should be having sex with Greek men from Greece. I should be spending time with really, really, ridiculously good looking men. Men so hot that you can barely look at them, because their hotness radiates like the sun. If this guy wakes up, I'll figure out what to do with him then, but no more waiting. I like him, but I need to make sure I'm not sitting and wasting time. It's like how fuckin' thick do you have to be to keep ME waiting? I'm not sure I wanna deal with a guy that dumb. So I am gonna have fun, flirt, and be a girl. This will be interesting!

I'm A Tad Nutty

So, wow things got a little dramatic a few days ago, but everything is fine now. I was having the mother of panic attacks, and my guy issues were at the eye of the storm. Needless to say things got blown out of proportion and I was very sad. But I'm clear now and feeling level-headed about my relation-dateship-thinga-ma-jig. Now my problem is that I realize what I want from the situation, but I don't know how to tell him. How do you start? What do you say? What if he thinks I'm crazy? See this how I get panic attacks. Ok new subject. Ashlee Simpson named her baby what? What a dumb ass!

I Think I'm Done

(Sigh) Not really sure what happened. I just feel like I woke up. Trying not to be too sad, but I can't really help it. It's hard for me to start over, and it took a lot out of me to just get to this point. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone either. I think I got tired of feeling uncertain. I wanted answers to questions I was afraid to ask, and now I don't know what to do. I'm REALLY confused. Worst than ever and I don't even know why. I don't have a funny picture or clever sign off for this post.

I Want YOU To Want ME!

I want to call him, I want to hang out with him, I like him. I don't like this. I want to be unaffected, but that's not happening. I feel like I'm falling too fast, and like I should be dating multiple dudes, but I'm just not wired like that though. I don't find a lot of people that I click with, and I can't fake it to just to make it seem like I don't like a guy as much as I do. I feel like a mess right now. Sucks to be me right now kids.